SIDDHA

knowing that

I found you

I secretly wept,

for I know that

I had found

my temptation.

virtual reality,
our space,
our connection.

i asked the oracle
how can i get her back in
my arms again?

answer, question
more question, more answer…

getting nowhere…sigh!

….she’s always in my heart
and always be her…

this i knew from the past,
i find her in the present
and maybe will in the future.

in the past when we were together
i couldn’t fight for you,
i did not follow my heart
i couldn’t break my pact to the path i choose.

tessalated pavement, black or white…

somehow i can’t make a stand.

all i knew is, i wanted to love you,
to be with you whatever it took.

…go deeper to the pain…feel it.

i regress deeply, time after time
i saw visions, the same fear of
love and failure…its always you.

i’m so happy when i found you again…but…

i no longer see myself in your eyes
i no longer hear my name in your voice
i no longer feel myself in your thoughts.

devoid of remembrace,
a clean slate.
every fiber of my being was
erased in you.

once again separated by fate.

nothing left but emptiness
filled with pain.