SIDDHA

inside yourself or outside,

you never have to change

what you see,

only the way you see it.

-thaddeus golas
the lazy man’s guide to enlightenment

As defined, “Vipassana, which means to see things as they really are, is one of India’s most ancient techniques of meditation. It was rediscovered by Gotama Buddha more than 2500 years ago and was taught by him as a universal remedy for universal ills, i.e., an Art Of Living.

This non-sectarian technique aims for the total eradication of mental impurities and the resultant highest happiness of full liberation. Healing, not merely the curing of diseases, but the essential healing of human suffering, is its purpose.

Vipassana is a way of self-transformation through self-observation. It focuses on the deep interconnection between mind and body, which can be experienced directly by disciplined attention to the physical sensations that form the life of the body, and that continuously interconnect and condition the life of the mind. It is this observation-based, self-exploratory journey to the common root of mind and body that dissolves mental impurity, resulting in a balanced mind full of love and compassion.

The scientific laws that operate one’s thoughts, feelings, judgements and sensations become clear. Through direct experience, the nature of how one grows or regresses, how one produces suffering or frees oneself from suffering is understood. Life becomes characterized by increased awareness, non-delusion, self-control and peace.”

It took me 10 days of noble silence, renunciation, fasting and strong determination to do deep surgical operation to my mind. After 3 days of doing Anapana Sati, starting 4:30 am until 9pm, the prison walls of my mind began to crack. I was caught by it in the solemn morning of the 3rd day while resting and unguarded. The sankhara release is overwhelming, Its an eye opener. Strong charge are felt in the heart center… a deep-black wound is so vivid. It took a lot of forms, its like an entity of fear, repressed anger, anxiety, depression, guilt, passion and as face of death. All are felt at the same time, all the destructive emotions of a normal human being. Its like sinking, no turning back. No time to grasp for air… i became a a silent witness of my thought prison. As I saw myself purging the puss of the mind, it felt like dying again and again.

On the 4th day Vipassana technique was taught. During those times of sitting meditation, the worry warts in me keeps on bugging my sitting. Lots of emotions are flooding my awareness and my body is taking its toll. My energy is dropping, i can hear my own heart beat, its like sitting beside it. Cold perspiration, heat burn, body pain and aches, shaking, dry throat, mystical experience, appearance of astral and elemental beings are seen in the night, in our room!…what makes it challenging is that we are instructed to silently observe them and feel the sensation, with no reaction, just observing their rising and passing.

By completely surrendering to the process and to the technique are the interesting part of the meditation. As the practice develops, the surgical operation of the mind continues beyond the subtle layers of accumulated sankharas are peeled off, layer by layer. Pleasant or unpleasant sensation, equanimity of the mind should be observed at all times. Without craving and aversion. The Sankharas of the past will slowly come out like a bubble… rising and passing, Anicca! Impermanent, ephemeral, changing nature of the mind are witnessed.

I truly realized that the path of the Buddhas are worth trying and learning, its not easy but doable.
The seed of the Dhamma in me was nourished once again in this present life.

And I know that it will take a thousand life times to trail these path and to tame my ego…

namaste:-)